Looking back now, I know that every one of us has this moment. That it’s perfectly normal for pre-teens to go through this sort of thing and that I shouldn’t have been concerned at the time.
You see, I had kissed a girl and liked it -- and the realization later in the evening that I may not be the same as all the other kids, caught me a bit off guard.
Even now, I remember how seriously I took the pondering of my future romantic direction. Did this mean I didn’t like boys? I still felt like I liked boys. There had been boys at the party and I certainly remember thinking they were cute. Maybe I was bisexual?*
I mean, I ruminated. Seriously. I went back over the day and the Star Wars themed birthday party and, as I recalled the kiss and the game that prompted it, the way we both giggled. The tilt of her head and the vest sliding off her shoulder….
Suddenly, I knew I was different.
I had a crush on a girl because she was dressed as Han Solo!
That was the moment I became keenly aware that I was a Geek.
How about you?
When did you have your “moment”?
(yes, even at 12, I was a pretty savvy kid, thanks to my mom).